Saturday, December 01, 2007


Sometimes I don't know what to do for my birthday. Once you're grown up you're supposed to figure out what you are going to do to make the day special (or not) instead of telling your parents what kind of party you want have.

Today worked out perfectly.

Darren and I went to breakfast at Annie's and got to have a morning walk on the way. I really like Annie's French toast and Darren had a flavorful and spicy breakfast burrito. Yum! We shared a root beer float afterwards (because we're adults and we can choose to do things like that!)

Later in the day I went to see Erin who made me lunch. We had lime-cilantro lentil soup and salmon patties with toast. So scrumptious! Then we had hot chocolate (made from a dark chocolate candy bar) and rose water cake with rose water icing. I hadn't ever had this kind of cake and with the first bite was in transports, with images of magical kingdoms, princesses, roses, and Victorian times flooding my mouth.*

I turned in some applications for holiday jobs - to see me through the end of finals and to hold me over until I get a GIS job somewhere - and felt pretty confident about the situation (that is one of the great things about getting older: you know what is going on and what to do more often).

Then, for dinner I had my Girl's Night girls over and we had dinner with Grandma and Grandpa. At my request Grandpa made his Famous Spaghetti Sauce, and Grandma tracked down my favorite pie: the Elusive Strawberry-Rhubarb. (Kudos to Marie Calendar's!) I recounted my adventures on Amtrak and we managed to sing 'Happy Birthday' before we lit the birthday candles (a yellow 2, and a purple 7 - very nice combination). Then, of course, us girls talked for about two hours (yes, Boys, we talked about you).

Throughout the day I received various gifts, cards, conversations, and text messages, all of which were wonderful reminders that the people around me (both near and far) love me and pay attention to me. I felt happy, excited, and energetic all day (with the exception of a few sleepy moments) and I know this is due to the caring energy that has been coming my way (and is partially due to the marvelous food - consumed in a larger and more continuous quantity than normal - that I have been eating today).


* If you have ever had your mouth washed out with rose scented soap, you may not appreciate the flavor of this cake.
For those who are wondering, no I didn't work on my papers. I kept intending to....

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Mostly Martha

They've done a remake of 'Mostly Martha'!! It is called 'No Reservations'. I think I'd like to see it. Kristi pointed out where the new one is similar to and different from the old one. That Kristi liked it is good. I adore the original. RJ, I can't thank you enough for gifting me my own copy! Look how many times I've seen it!

1. With Dad (Eka)
2. With RJ (CH)
3. With Allen and the sisters (Rckn)
4. With Nick
5. With Erin (CH)
6. With Timothy (FO)
7. With Kristi and Shannan (RC)
8. With Darren

I think I might have watched by myself once, but I can't remember...

Walking Backwards

When tumultuous sentiments become unarticulateable
and release and respite are shortlived,
When feelings prefer evasion rather than confrontation
and aspirations soar out of reach and sight,
Then remembering forgotten perspective
faith and hope struggle to reawaken.

Thursday, July 26, 2007


I once heard that in the beginning of the computer era one of the computer visionaries (like B. Gates or someone) said that someday computers would be an 'Information Appliance' as necessary to our lives as refrigerators, washers, and dryers.

Having lived without a computer for extended periods of time, I think that the statement is becoming a reality.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Well Taken Care Of

Yesterday, Grandma had surgery to take care of a corroded artery. A couple weeks ago, Grandpa had surgery to remove part of a lung affected with cancer. When I think about how we found out that Grandma and Grandpa had these potentially life threatening things going on in their bodies, I am thankful that Father makes things difficult and scary sometimes.

Grandpa had been sick since New Years. He felt miserable and fatigued for a long, long time, so they finally went to the doctor. The doctor did some tests, then some more tests, and told them that Grandpa had lung cancer. Whatever bug he had since New Years finally went away (I don’t know what it was), and they have been able to start to address the cancer before it got worse.

Grandma often had tingling and numbness in her left side about four months ago. After some visits to the doctor, and some tests, they decided to do surgery to clean out a corroded artery. What they discovered during the surgery was that her artery was 80% corroded and that she was at high risk to have strokes. In fact, the tingling episodes that she had been having before were called ITs (we can’t remember what it stands for) or mini-strokes.

I know that grandparents die eventually, but having my grandparents go through these trials (and surgeries) has made me really grateful that they didn’t have to come close to death too early. I still want them around for a while and I feel really lucky that they both have been well taken care of by my Heavenly Father.

Monday, February 19, 2007

Hermann Hesse

From Gertrude (pgs 132-133)

"Something Muoth had once said occurred to me and I repeated it to my father. Muoth had said, not really in earnest, that he found that most old people were much more serene and contented than young people. My father laughed at that and said thoughtfully: "Naturally we old people say just the opposite, but there is some truth in what your friend said. I think one can draw quite a distinct division between youth and maturity. Youth ends when egotism does; maturity begins when one lives for others. That is what I mean. Young people have many pleasures and many sorrows, because they have only themselves to think of, so every wish and every notion assumes importance; every pleasure is tasted to the full but also every sorrow, and many who find that their wishes cannot be fulfilled, put an end immediately to their lives. That is being young. To most people, however, there comes a time when the situation changes, when they live more for others, not for any virtuous reasons, but quite naturally. A family is the reason with most people. One thinks less about oneself and one's wishes when one has a family. Others lose their egotism in a responsible position, in politics, in art or in science. Young people want to play; mature people want to work. A man does not marry just to have children, but if he has them they change him, and finally he sees that everything has happened just for them. That links up with the fact that young people like to talk about death but do not really think about it. It is just the other way round with old people. Life seems long to young people and they can therefore concentrate all their wishes and thoughts on themselves. Old people are conscious of an approaching end, and that everything one has and does solely for oneself finally falls short and lacks value. Therefore a man requires a different kind of continuity and faith; he does not work just for the worms. That is why one has a wife and children, business and responsibility, so that one knows for whom one endures the daily toil. In that respect your friend is quite right, a man is happier when he lives for others than when he lives just for himself, but old people should not make it out to be such an act of heroism, because it isn't one rally. In any case, the most lively young people become the best old people, not those who pretend to be as wise as grandfathers while they are still at school. "

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

aware of my need

A lot of people have some kind of cold or virus right now. Among the many afflictions which have come to my attention are my mom's head cold and my grandma's cough. Mom is staying at Grandma's this week so they went shopping together and apparently stocked up on medicines. I went to visit and to have dinner with them after work. They noticed my coughing and sneezing right away.

Grandma told me to take a bottle of cough syrup home.

"Don't you need it?" I asked.
"I bought one for myself today and it was on sale for 'buy one get one free.'" Grandma said. So I acquired a much needed bottle of cough syrup.

Later on Mom asked me if I was taking Echinacea to fight the cold.

"I only have Echinacea tea." I said (which is not the most potent way to get it into your system). Mom went away and came back with a bottle of Echinacea. "Aren't you using this?" I asked her.
"I bought two bottles today for 'buy one get one free.'" She gave me her second bottle.

Before I left Grandma's house I had also been outfitted with AlkaSeltzer, cough drops, Chinese food, and clear soda.

All of this is in addition to a batch of scrumptious homemade chicken soup a friend made me, which has sustained me for a number of days.

I have been well taken care of. Truly "the tender mercies of the Lord are over all those whom he hath chosen, because of their faith, to make them mighty even unto the power of deliverance." (1 Nephi 1:20) I don't feel very mighty, but through the love and service of those around me I feel delivered. I know that Father is aware of my every need.

Monday, February 05, 2007

Mahalia Jackson

"It is easy to be independent when you've got money.
But to be independent when you haven't got a thing -
that's the Lord's test"
-Mahalia Jackson

Comte de Bussy-Rabutin

"Absence is to love what wind is to fire;
It extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great. "
-Comte de Bussy Rabutin

Saturday, February 03, 2007

kersina quote

"life is a work in progress. stay tuned."
little by little; inch by inch

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Current Books

I am currently reading:

Merlin by Stephen Lawhead
Daniel Deronda by George Eliot
Reading Lolita in Tehran: A Memoir in Books by Azar Nafisi
La Ciudad de las Bestias by Isabel Allende
The Enoch Letters by Neal A. Maxwell
Instant European History by Robert P. Libbon
Anecdotes of Destiny and Ehrengard by Isak Dinesen

Mon. 8 Jan. 2007

I unexpectedly had the day off of work today. I was grateful for the time to stay home and attend to my house. I barely got half of what I wanted to do done, but I feel very satisfied about the things that I did do. Among some of today's highlights were vacuuming and eating.

Fall semester was so stressful that I didn't edge when I vacuumed. When you run the vacuum up to the wall there is an inch or two right along the baseboard that doesn't get the full cleaning effect. Edging is going along the edge of the carpet with the vacuum hose (without the carpet beater part) and getting all the dust and cobwebs in the corners. Not having the time or energy to edge has been bugging me for a long time. Today I edged. And I vacuumed really good. (Oh, and I mopped too.) And now I feel really good.

Everyone will be pleased to hear that I had three meals today. Count them: Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinner. They were very small meals ... but they were meals, and there were three of them, and I exceeded my goal of eating two meals today, so I feel very pleased with myself. Don't ask me to repeat it tomorrow. We will just focus on the sucess of today.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Every moment

"Every moment must be different. Different feelings, different happiness, different pain."

5 Nov 2006

The language of my mind

"The language of my mind is insufficient to express the movements of my soul."

Oct 2006